“I’m barely 20 years old, and I feel like the last seven years of my life have been dedicated to depression and other issues. My life is a huge cycle of eating disorders, drugs, depression and finally a period of carelessness. I feel like lately I’ve dug myself even deeper into this hole, and I can’t pretend anymore. I literally have to excuse myself at times because I get a random need to cry and it’s impossible for me to hold back my tears.
My feelings used to involve anger and, like I mentioned at some point, pure carelessness, but lately I feel absolutely nothing, but sadness. Suicide has never crossed my mind. My sister has attempted it in the past and I just couldn’t put my family through that again. No one knows about my problems, or at least no one has ever really said anything. But I can’t keep hiding, not do I want to. I can’t continue to live my life in the dark. What can I do to help myself?”–Sad and Scared